All the world's a stage...know your lines

PRAISE BE TO GOD

2008-06-03T14:30:06Z

At 10:00am on June 3, 2008 I witnessed a miracle. I am writing this as a testimony.

I have been suffering from my first migraine since March 30th. I have been taking meds and sleeping because that's about all I could do. I went to the chiropractor yesterday and he gave me an adjustment. He told me to call him if the pain was still there in the next 24-48 hours. I took some Excedrin Migraine at 9:30 last night that was given to me by a friend. I took and after a little bit I felt great. I stayed up until 4am (probably because I'd been sleeping all day long) and finally went to sleep. I woke up in a lot of pain again at about 8am and laid in bed until about 9:30. I'm not supposed to take the Excedrin Migraine more than once in a 24 hour period. I called my mom who told me to take some more. I called the chiro who on his break is going to call me back.

I got so frustrated.

"God I'm not going to go through this crap of saying that I know your able but are you willing. So heal me. Right now heal me!" I said in tears. I covered my eyes, and ALL THE PAIN WENT AWAY.

I'm still crying. He healed me just like that.

He healed me. I'm still a little tender in the neck and shoulders but all my other symptoms have disappeared.

You don't believe in miracles? Then you probably won't believe this one. Do I care? Not really. Because I know God performs miracles.

Hallelujah.

Today is Wednesday

2008-04-16T19:43:32Z

NO NO NO NO NO.

New Toy

2008-04-02T20:20:15Z

Ryan got me a new car. I'm playing with it right now as I "work" in the computer lab.

I am bored. I should be memorizing Tempest and practicum and Shakespeare Production but I'm not. I will soon. I'm enjoying my peanut butter and banana sandwich.

So it's been a couple weeks.

I had a good long talk with Thom yesterday. We discussed my future, next year, The Tempest, life all wonderful things. I do still want to hang around next year, just because of Thom and Sheila. Then again, it's time to branch out. Then again, where am I gonna go...

I've been looking at jobs in the area, I need to make my work resume.

I need to get through this semester. It's almost over. I'm so scared. And excited.

15 days until the Tempest!
24 days until my birthday!
44 days until my family comes!
45 days until graduation...

Oh my.

I'm scurred.

These past 2 months have been really hard. But I know that God doesn't give me more than I can handle. Still processing. Still...

Back to "work".

I'm spending my spring break...

2008-03-17T14:32:24Z

Working at the computer lab.

Have rehearsal after.

I have a few nights off though which is nice!

Kate, Danielle and I are working on our costumes today too. PSYCHED! My mind is so blown for the Tempest. I can't wait.

No internship this week. More work!!

Saw Doug last night! It was so wonderful. I miss him so much. A lot more than I thought.

Last night was the first rehearsal in the Black Box. Already it was working better.

Yesterday was a great day. Church. Kim. New phone! Rehearsal. Doug. Diner. Cedar Cre...sorry! Campus View now.

Chill.

Staff Meeting

2008-01-18T18:38:55Z

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? Went out of the country....went on a missions trip, got my first aparment

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make one last year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no

4. Did anyone close to you die? no

5. What countries did you visit? Scotland, Ireland

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007? Listening to God's voice instead of my own

7. What date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? very many

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? a 3.94 gpa and being in 3 shows this past semester and living in my first apartment.

9. What was your biggest failure? why dwell on that

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? my back

11. What was the best thing you bought? bare essentials makeup

12. Where did most of your money go? food, bills

13. What did you get really, really, really excited about? being a senior

14. What song will always remind you of 2007? piano music from Suicide King

15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder? same
older or wiser? wiser
thinner or fatter? fatter
richer or poorer? poorer

16. What do you wish you'd done more of? earned more money

17. What do you wish you'd done less of? spend $ on food

18. How did you spend Christmas? With my wonderful family in Colorado.

19. What was your favorite TV program? still didn't watch TV

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? no

21. What was the best book you read? if a play counts: 9 Parts of Desire

22. What was your greatest musical discovery? Mute Math

23. What did you want and get? something I don't have anymore

24. What did you want and not get? becoming a server at CPK

25. What was your favorite film of this year? Transformers...

26. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Went out with friends, 22

27. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? not sure

28. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? I always improve on my dress

29. What kept you sane? My family, CLG, Pat

30. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? none

31. What political issue stirred you the most? The war on Iraq because of 9 Parts of Desire

32. Who did you miss? My family

33. Who was the best new person you met? Computer Lab people

34. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007: don't go on livejournal while your boss is giving a staff meeting...

VENT

2008-01-15T14:52:50Z

So now instead of making 8.50 an hour plus tips on takeout, I now have to declare my tips which means that all my tips get taken out of my paycheck. So now I make...8.50 an hour. Not happening. I made more money as a host. I made more money at Rainforest!

I am in such a crappy state. I'm talking to them. Although apparently, everyone is supposed to declare their tips anyway...but I thought that was for servers...ya know because they make less than minimum wage but they make so much in tips that that brings them UP to minimum and then they keep whatever is left that they make. I don't get minimum....so the only thing it does to me is make me less. With the hours I'm working...that means I lose between 75 and 100 dollars a week. I can't afford that.

I've decided not to back down on this. If they are going by the book NOW, I'm telling them I'm done with takeout and want to go back to hosting. I made more money as a host. What's the point of making tips if all that gets taken out of my paycheck? There is no longer an incentive to work harder to get tips. If I do a good job and tips...I make 8.50 an hour. If I do poorly and don't make any tips...I get 8.50 AN HOUR. I think that's a valid argument.

It also sucks for the counter person because there is no takeout person during the day. So before, the counter would have to do both....now they have to do both and declare the tips they made in takeout....so they're doing more work for less pay. Not right.

I don't care if I was supposed to be doing this all along. I'm not staying with 8.50 an hour. If that's the case then I'm asking for a raise. The only reason why I never asked for a raise was because I made tips....if that doesn't count anymore then a raise is only fair.

I'm not sitting down on this. I can't afford to take a paycut like this. Not now. I have bills to pay.

Picking up hours at the computer lab this week = desperate.

On top of all that: I just found out that my second scene for ACTF is a red light author. I have 2 weeks to work with Ben on another scene which is TBA.

Sometimes I just want to break down and cry...although I've realized that getting angry makes me feel better than crying. That's probably a bad thing.

Happy Beautiful New Year

2008-01-01T18:23:50Z

Colorado is beautiful. I hate to leave my family.

This past week has been the best I could hope for.

Got my grades! So happy.

Geography of Tourism - A
World Civ II - A
Computer Graphics - A
Acting IV - A
Play Production - A
Stage Combat - A-

I have a 3.94 for this semester and a 3.64 overall. One more semester...

Christmas was wonderful just being with my family. I got drunk with my family last night playing Dominos...we missed the ball dropping by 12 seconds...oh well, it was great.

I got back on Thursday. Back to life...(you know the song I'm thinking of)

I love this place.

I just realized something

2007-11-14T15:15:06Z

I really haven't posted in here in quite a while. Why, you say? Because I've had no time. Really. It's about as easy as that. I can finally type fine now and write correctly after my busted hand incident last week:

We were in rehearsal for Suicide Kings and One Eyed Jacks and someone was doing a cartwheel. Unfortunately it was too close and I got kicked in the hand. It tensed up and I couldn't move it I was sure whether it was sprained or fractured or what. It's been wrapped up since then and I've been slowly getting flexibility back in it. I can almost make a complete fist. I no longer need to have it wrapped and that makes me happy.

Hokay more updates:

Grapes of Wrath was incredible. I absolutely loved working with Sheila. It was also one of my best directorial experiences I've ever had.

The 2nd run of Suicide Kings was a trip. The performance itself was great in Torpe. ACTF came and said a lot of good and constructive things. They nominated 3 people from it (because we wanted it to get held...which it is) and I was one of the nominees. :) Yay.

Now I'm in 9 Parts of Desire now and the rehearsal process is difficult. I'm not off book (even though I'm supposed to be for this week) and it's a lot of text. But, ya know what? The experience is really good. I've been getting better and better at memorizing. Because all this semester I've been constantly having to memorize more than one things at a time. With shows overlapping as well as work in Acting IV, all this work is really challenging me.

For next semester I am directing a show (which apparently is the touring show....although I had no intention of making it such) I still need to pick exactly which one I'm doing. I'm torn between a couple of ideas.

I'm also getting ready for Tempest auditions. I'm nervous but excited.

And then there's getting my applications out. Yikes.

On Dec 24th I will be on a plane to Colorado! I get to see my family for a week and a half! It makes me happy. I can't wait.

And finally, Thanksgiving will be spent with my father and his girlfriend. Yes, girlfriend. YAHOO! I'm so happy.

Besides are those things I'm still working 2 jobs and going to classes and rehearsals. I also have an internship with Hartford Stage next semester. Whoo...

And I'm spent.

My newest amusement

2007-10-09T14:38:01Z

I think I've watched every single video of this guy. His Borg impression is the best. Ahh Vitas....you Russian icon you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XYApregsFI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8P-9dQb1JGw

Dreaming

2007-09-29T16:11:48Z

Megan and Chris' wedding was the most beautiful wedding I've ever been to. I of course cried. Everything went off without a hitch. It was perfect. I can't even describe it. It just makes me dream...

They are truly blessed.

I'm working at the computer lab right now. Yup... working.

I'm so busy. I need to keep up.

That is all.

First time in 3 weeks

2007-09-05T13:15:45Z

Been a long time with no real internet.

I am at the computer lab as of now...(working)...but shh don't tell.

I've got nothing else to do except swipe people in. It's funny to think that I'm almost half way through my shift and I got here at 8:15.

Life.

Crazy, life.

My parents are officially in CO. They moved into their new home and are getting situated. I miss them and my sister desperately.

I am in my new apt. Still have boxes to unpack, food to buy and a couple rooms to finish situating...as well as bills to pay.

I'm happy to have this job to get a couple extra hours. I have 11 hours a week here and hopefully about 15 at CPK. That'll give me what I need, as well as house sitting for Alexis. She gave me 3 more extended dates. $$$

My show goes up next weekend. My collaboration show with Pat, Kate, Zac, MJ and Vanessa. As difficult as some things are, I am really excited for this show.

Suicide King and One-Eyed Jacks
Sept 13-15th 7:30pm
Black Box Theatre,
Maloney Hall, CCSU

And now, ladies and gentlemen, some news:

Sarah Hutchinson Warner is officially in a relationship...for the first time in 4 years.
I am still a little unused to this. But I'm really excited. This is going to be good.

And I know some of you reading this will be like.....WHAAA?

Pat Wheeler.

Yup.

I have such a giddy, dorky feeling inside me. I like it. I like him. A lot.

We've been going to church together and of course we're in the show together plus 3 classes. The relationship part is new but I like so much how we can have so much FUN with each other. I feel so comfortable.

Okay, I'm done.

No one wants to read this anymore.

:)
:)

Anywho, 2nd day of classes. Acting IV begins at 1pm.

Come see my show.

Beach tomorrow with Joanna!

2007-07-15T03:00:24Z

I'm excited. It'll probably be the only day I'll go to the beach. So worth it.

So I've really been attacked lately. God must be up to something. But it's okay. Because I'm not worried.

I'm excited! There are big things coming.

2 doubles in 2 days....YAWN.

Rehearsal tomorrow night.

I meet with Alexis Monday to talk about house sitting! Possibly $40 a night! I really hope this works out. She seems so nice.

A long couple weeks ahead of me.

By the Way...the last entry

2007-07-11T02:47:12Z

1) Singing in the Rain
2) Edward Scissorhands
4) Ferris Bueller's Day Off
7) Chocolat

I figured Singing in the Rain and Chocolat would be hard but c'mon people.

*Stole from Michele*

How Old Were you When you First...

1.Fell in love - has yet to happen

2. Lost someone close to you - 18

3. Got drunk - hmm ... 18

4. Smoked weed - never

5. Got french kissed - Keegan Coburn/14

6. Went to the hospital for surgery - never

7. Got your heart broken badly - 16

8. Lost a pet - 4

9. Got arrested - never

10. Smoked a Cigarette - never

11. Broken a bone- 10

12. Went to a concert - Radio 104 Fest 2001/ 17

13. Got your own cell phone - 18

14. Got a speeding ticket- 18

15. Got a myspace account - 20

16. Snuck out of the house - never

17. Pierced other than your ears - nada

18. Got a tattoo - not yet

19. Snuck someone in your house - never

20. Went to a club - never

21. Learned to drive - 18

22. Totalled a car - never

23. How old are you now? 22

Yup, I'm doing it too!!

2007-07-07T01:05:14Z

1. Pick a fifteen movies that are ones that you have special feelings about.
2. Pick a few lines of dialog that mean something to you.
3. As people guess the film, strike out that entry.
4. If possible, after the film is guessed, explain why that movie made the list.

1) "That means I'm out of a job! At last, I can start suffering and write that symphony."
"I'm making you head of the new music dept."
"Thanks! At last I can stop suffering and right that symphony."

2) "Hold me."
"I can't."

3) " I have a mortal wound."
"Where? Where does it hurt?"
"Oh, pretty much around the big bloody spot." Kung Pow: Enter the Fist dazzyl927

4) "In a nutshell, I hate my brother."
"That's cool. Did you blow him away or something?"

5) ~~"Yeah, but you know what? This one, this one right here. This was my dream, my wish. And it didn't come true. So I'm taking it back. I'm taking them all back."~~ The Goonies onmyshore

6) "As you can see, the psuedo-facade was stripped away to reveal a minimalist rococo design. Note the unusual inversely vaulted ceilings. This is yet another example of the late neoclassic Baroque period. And, as I always say, "if it's not Baroque, don't fix it!" Beauty and the Beast onmyshore

7) "I hear she's an atheist.
"What's that?"
"I don't know."

8) ~~"If the good Lord had intended us to walk he wouldn't have invented roller-skates."~~ Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory chellebelle02

9) "You know there's nothing wrong with that name."
"There was nothing wrong with it... until I was about 12 years old and that no-talent ass clown became famous and started winning Grammys." Office Space onmyshore

10) ~~"But they said you were dead! You must be - double dead!"~~ Nightmare Before Christmas MF

11) "They used to be fat and juicy and now they're twisted. They had their lives stolen. Well, they taste sweet, but really they're just humiliated grapes. I can't say I am a big supporter of the raisin council." Benny and Joon onmyshore

12) "Tell me, who was your previous employer?"
"I was in a band, 'Severe Tire Damage."
"In a band?"
"I just want to know one thing. Are your kids well-behaved? Or do they need like, a few light slams every now and then?" Mrs. Doubtfire chellebelle02

13) "What is this? The best two outta three?"
"I guess I got carried away."
"Yeah, she carried me right with her - I don't weigh very much." White Christmas onmyshore

14) ~~"Last week, class, we discussed the geography of Main Street. This week we're going to be talking about Elm Street. Now, can anyone tell me the difference between Elm Street and Main Street?"~~ Pleasantville dazzyl927

15) "As the good book says, when a poor man eats a chicken, one of them is sick."
"Where does the book say that?"
"Well, it doesn't say that exactly, but somewhere there is something about a chicken!" Fiddler on the Roof onmyshore

A Good Day

2007-07-05T03:16:12Z

I am so happy to have a friend like Nikki. One of 3 friends that I still keep in contact with from high school.

I went to her campground with the puppy today and had a blast. Just with her, her parents and their friends. It was so nice. Unfortunately the boat ride was short because of the coolness and rain. But that's okay.

Jake was the life of the party. And such a good boy.

I had so much fun. A good day.

Back to the grind tomorrow. Ah well, it was nice.

Jake is recovering now.

And...

2007-07-01T12:32:56Z

she's gone.

Listening to the Dog Lapping up Water

2007-06-23T03:16:15Z

I feel really alone tonight.

Productivity

2007-06-19T15:06:31Z

Today is officially my last day of freedom. It sorts happened by chance too. We were supposed to have our mask making workshop today but it moved to Thursday.

Work tomorrow, then church.

Mask workshop Thursday and then...AHM starts. And will own my soul until the end of July. I'm just hoping I'll be getting more hours at work.

I'm trying. But these next 2 weeks aren't going to be fun. I'm trying to spend as much time with my sister as I can. Because I probably won't be able to see her until Christmas.

Got the storage unit. Moving all her stuff next Thursday. I need help. Any strong men wanna come help me move a couch and things?

Another person is coming to see the condo today.

Ori will be staying with my father come August. That's what's best for him right now.

Still no home for Jake. If you know anyone, please let me know.

Okay. Just keep swimming.

It's getting closer

2007-06-16T02:51:45Z

So instead of Father's Day, my father would rather go to a graduation party for a family friend that he's not really that close to.

My sister leaves June 30th.

My chiropractor's appointment was less than successful.

X-ray results:
My lower back and pelvic problems are caused by an over curve in my lower back (profile view) and a spinal twist when it connects to my pelvis. The latter he thinks he can fix. The first one he says is something he can help in the pain but will most likely be a "get adjusted once a month for the rest of your life" type deal to keep it from getting worse.

Getting hours from work are still a hassle.

My parents want to get rid of the dog ASAP. If you know anyone...I just want Jake to go to a good home.

I am just not happy right now.

Go through the open doors

2007-06-03T18:54:31Z

It's amazing how much God has blessed me. There are things that I thought were happening that aren't anymore, but God is faithful.

Denver is no longer happening. I am in CT for the summer.

I did not get into Little Women. Understandable at least.

I am waiting on Maryrose to return my phone call about AHM.

The mask show is progressing.

I am working at CPK and I will begin the next server training class (according to Kevin).

I made Dean's list again. 5 As, 1 B+.

I recieved the Torp Theatre scholarship.

Scotland and Ireland were amazing. Probably the best experience of my life.

Joanna, let me know when you are free. Let's hang out.

Home

2007-06-01T11:52:42Z

I am home.

Leaving on a Jet Plane Seems Appropriate

2007-05-22T11:52:09Z

I am leaving this morning at 11:30 to drive over to the church, put my stuff in a large van and drive up to Boston for the 1:30? flight to Dublin. I will then fly from Dublin to Glasgow. 5 days in Glasgow, Scotland filled with worship and praise. After that, 4 days in Ireland with friends and fun. I don't think I've ever been more nervous.

My first missions trip.

I don't think I've ever been more excited either.

I am truly blessed.

Pray for me. I know that things will be changing.

I'll be back on May 31.

3 more days

2007-05-14T20:32:12Z

And all will be finished.

I am so proud of Pat and Joanna and Christa. They did an amazing job with the shows. Everything was a hit.

Mom and Pete found a real estate agent. It's really happening.

Moving in my stuff...sort of.

Food and Megan's. Then writing my journal for improv. And studying for Italian somewhere in there.

What a beautiful day.

Finally got my passport! Only a little more money to raise.

I hate being torn in all different directions.

Scotland in 8 days...

What a Day

2007-05-10T05:39:55Z

It really saddens and disheartens me to see how people define and treat friendship.

It makes me just want to keep my distance until I graduate.

This is so Good

2007-05-07T12:40:44Z

It is. It really is. I'm just going to miss them so much.

My parents are moving to Colorado. I'm not sure when yet. They need to fix up the condo to sell it. It'll probably be by then end of the summer.

I've never seen them so happy when they came home yesterday. This is what God wants and this is what they want. I'm just going to miss them so much.

And for my mom to be excited, that's huge. She's never lived out of CT before. Never.

I'll have my apartment by then, and of course, dad will always be here. He'll be here till he dies.

I'm just going to miss them so much.

But part of me feels it's only a matter of time.